This is interesting! Yeah, I recognize the freeze frame stuff from the impermanence door. The images sort of freeze for a short moment before changing. This happens three times, and then you’re gone. I saw that very clearly the third time. The first two times there was just a vague notion of a staccato experience of some kind, and I think it was mainly kinesthethic, but I guess that’s also sort of a sequence with freeze frame components.
I often space out like that before I get into the kind of mind state that makes fruitions possible. I used to think that was dullness, but then I noticed a pattern of increased clarity afterwards. So that could actually lead to a fruition as well? Interesting!
Your third example occurred for me prior to my third fruition within the same session, in a way that stood out from what I’m used to, but it didn’t lead to a fruition. There were other things happening inbetween. Cool that it can lead to a fruition! Anyway, first I thought that fruition had a dukkha aspect to it, because falling into a black hole felt like exactly the wrong thing to do, and that’s how Daniel Ingram describes the dukkha aspect. Michael Taft, my teacher, did not agree, though. He said that with the dukkha door there is a sense of feeling very badly that one cannot take it anymore, not a single sensation ever again. Daniel also describes the dukkha door as slow and painful and as having things ripped away from you until you can’t take anymore. I think I’ll try to skip that door if possible. I have felt like that during depressions, though, so maybe it is managable.