Giulio B. practice journal
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- TravisGM
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"TravisGM":399tdwms wrote: How has your noting been going?[/quote:399tdwms]
Hello, thank you. If I tried to answer your question I would get crazy for a couple of hours and then eventually give up. I really don't know how my noting is going, this is why I don't say anything about it. I can sort of grasp that the objective would be to "catch" all mental phenomena, the one going on right now for example. Though this seems to be a natural process, non do-able, Noting would be a means to trick the brain into putting itself in that mode. I know that mental things are sticky and have a sort of grabbing and dragging power, suffering activates intensely there. In very rare times they get recognized at their beginning stage of life though, and the grabbing power either does not activate or it dissolves. In that case the associated suffering also dissolves (to re-emerge a split of second later with another phenomena), and there is suddenly excitement. Though I can't voluntarily activate this thing. Also motivation fluctuates greatly.
What would have you answered at my place?
(about to do noting right now).
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About to start noting (5 minutes late).
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Edit: done 10 minutes of "texting" just to play around. 74 words in total.
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Edit: about to do 50 min. of noting. (7 minutes late)
Update: done about 45 minutes of noting this morning, about to do 45 minutes of noting right now (38 minutes late)
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Update: 45 minutes of noting starting now (30 minutes late)
Update: 45 minutes of noting starting now, in time.
Update: 45 minutes of noting starting now (38 minutes late). Being late is destructive.
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A couple of days ago I stated: "doubling the dose starts today..." alluding at a second period of meditation in the morning. Couldn't do it more than once. It is Okay for me now just perfecting the practice at 1 time/day. Furthermore, I feel the practice has stabilized in the sense that I do not need anymore social pressure to push me doing it. So I won't need any more announcements like "About to do 45 minutes of...".
I'll use a new format for posting from now on, to give a sense of order. It is the one below.
Practice journal of Saturday 28/12/2013
Current schedule: Choiceless noting 1/day, 45 minutes, starting at 21:30 p.m.
Done: yes, late
Considerations: A few periods of daydreaming, lasting 30-60 seconds I think. For the rest nothing relevant. Although I'm not sure, I think I would need more concentration for this to work out.
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Current schedule: Choiceless noting 1/day, 45 minutes, starting at 21:30 p.m.
Done: yes, late
Considerations: none.
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Current schedule: Choiceless noting 1/day, 45 minutes, starting at 21:30 p.m.
Done: yes, late
Considerations: great deal of self-criticism, comments about personal inefficacy, and general rumination. I am currently ruminating.
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Current schedule: Choiceless noting 1/day, 45 minutes, starting at 21:30 p.m.
Done: yes, late
Considerations: periods of bombardments by feelings of futility and ineffectiveness concerning the practice, intervalled by periords of satisfaction and self-efficacy, always in relation to practice.
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Current schedule: Choiceless noting 1/day, 45 minutes, starting at 21:30 p.m.
Done: yes, punctual
Considerations: none
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There are good days and bad days, generally 1:1, somewhat alternating. Today is bad day. Anxiety and stress were high for reasons that I don't even know, and the whole thing crashed during the first kasina session (right at the beginning), i gave up. Exasperation I think was the thing... I'm going to do and complete the other part of today schedule at any cost, starting now.
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Sorry for the delayed response, I thought that the site became inactive completely but obvious is not!
Does Kenneth advise you to do this kind of meditation? And what is your total meditation time everyday?
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"TravisGM":2a63b23z wrote: Giulio,
Sorry for the delayed response, I thought that the site became inactive completely but obvious is not!
Does Kenneth advise you to do this kind of meditation? And what is your total meditation time everyday?[/quote:2a63b23z]
Hello Travis, thank you for asking. I've moved this thread to awakenetwork where I've pointed out the answers. Thanks again.