Hey, guys
I'd like to share a profound experience that happened yesterday. Many would've probably called it realization, but this word implies pseudo-ultimate knowledge, so I won't use it.
In two parts.
1. I had seen a lot of stuff in my direct experience, gross and subtle and very subtle processes. I've seen something making choices, to move attention, for example. Probing further here sometimes I've found more subtle "choosing" processes. I the "current" end I'm left in the field with no space, no time, but with choice.
2. I've been studying Bell's theorem heavily lately. Won't go into details here, if you like there's an amazing, short, clear and precise book I highly recommend to anyone
www.goodreads.com/book/show/26874006-quantum-chance
What's important is the major implication of Bell's theorem that nature is non-local and it has a free choice that manifests in a non-local way. But we have no slightest idea what this free choice is, how to "test" it.
Then, I heard a phrase coming out of my mouth "I choose not to believe in coincidences. I choose to believe in the free choice on the part of nature".
Then it hit me. I am looking at the elephant from two sides. There's some elephant there, for sure. And both sides say: one of the rawest features of the elephant is free choice.
Am I free choice? I was walking around the house saying it all evening in different voices: "I am free choice. I am free and I am choice".
This experience has all the classic qualities of mystical experience. I was more real than real. It was impersonal (transpersonal). It was like direct knowledge.
Asking myself "how do I know that I am free choice" I said: "I don't know, what I see is an elephant that from two very broad and deep sides look like a free choice".
Not making any statement of an ultimate knowledge. I will continue my explorations from inside, grinding hard any fabricated choosing processes. I will continue my study of Bell's theorem until I can explain it in 30 simple sentences to any person.
Kenneth, and everyone, what can you say about the nature of choosing in your experience? Were there any choice moments that you aren't able to objectify (yet)?
If you also have any input from the other side of the elephant, please, be sure it includes Bell's theorem. Otherwise it's just a play on words.