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This is the last of the parts of my journal from KFD that I will post here. There is more talk of what comes after awakening and how to deal with the reality awakening provides. I encounter a huge negative … Continue reading

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My first few months after fourth path. Lots of figuring out what it means, how to live with it, what changed and what didn’t. More family crises to deal with and how practice affects that. Comparing notes with dharma pals … Continue reading

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Process oriented practice becomes almost untenable as the practice again changes. Deeper questions of metaphysics and related matters becomes more prominent. A focus on authenticity appears and settles in, along with the related feeling of “flow” and the notion of … Continue reading

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The practice begins to change on its own, becoming less process oriented and points to deeper, emptiness oriented “stuff.” Struggling with some personal and family issues makes the value of the practice evident, reviving faith in the process. ┬áMind becomes … Continue reading

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Starting to feel emotional “heart” oriented effects of the practice. Questioning of the value of the process. Nirodha Samapati experiences continue accompanied by Kenneth Folk’s advice and counsel. Playing with jhanas, finding new ones with some frequency.

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 Struggling through, slogging through, second and early third path. Lots of odd visual and auditory stuff showing up. Trying to lead a somewhat normal home and working life while being dragged through the practice by unseen tidal forces.

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  This is my online mediation journal, posted in several parts. It was originally posted entirely on Kenneth Folk Dharma on the dates you will see on each post listed below. This was the first online journal started at KFD. … Continue reading

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