Antero's practice journal 6

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7 years 6 months ago #94103 by Antero
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[b:1ajcv79v]Evolution of the Body Experience
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Before I became more involved with the Bodywork, I had been mostly interested in the mental level of the experience of emptiness and had neglected the selfing contained in the bodily tension, that gives rise to the the conceptual image of the body, which is mistakenly identified as the genuine body experience.

With the penetration of the conceptual body, the ongoing body experience can be likened to a diffuse boundary filled with flows of vibration. There is a feeling of open-endedness and hollowness within the upper body extending down into the earth from the base of the spine and up through the top of the head. Attending to the hollow core of the body increases the awareness of space and brings blissful feeling.

Currently the openness and the flowing quality of the body is present at all times and even the unwanted body sensations of discomfort and pain do not cause solid contracting feeling. There are only small pockets of contraction present, that will promptly soften with the increase of mindfulness.

Directing the mindfulness to the feeling of space, that is this body, expands the boundaries even further. When the space of awareness comes more to focus, the physical sensations appear like swarms of energy bursts on the radar screen.
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7 years 5 months ago #94104 by AnthonyYeshe
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Thanks for the reports Antero. I always enjoy reading your posts.
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7 years 5 months ago #94105 by Antero
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"AnthonyYeshe":3g79w0kg wrote: Thanks for the reports Antero. I always enjoy reading your posts.[/quote:3g79w0kg]

Thanks Anthony, nice to see you here <!-- s:) --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s:) -->

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7 years 5 months ago #94106 by Antero
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[b:35vwd2hy]Trekchod - Cutting Through
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How to maintain a state of mindfulness that by definition cannot be found and cannot be maintained? The emptiness of the body has been like an anchor for me, keeping the touch light on everyday experience and preventing the habitual grasping from taking over. Still it has often been the case that the openness is overlayed with a slight feeling of tension or at times it may is too relaxed resulting in the identification with mind objects. This overlay can be so subtle that it is hard to pinpoint, almost like a thin layer of dust covering the mirror. The application of Trekchod has proven to cut through the fabrications like a knife and has become my favourite way of keeping the awake emptiness fresh during the day. First cutting through three times and then cutting through the knife itself.

I have been noticing the habit of the conceptual mind to try to fit the natural state into a thing, reducing it into just another idea that can be pinned down and safely categorized. As an antidote to this, the Dzogchen teacher Tsoknyi Rinpoce recommends cultivating an attitude of abandon to the realization of the mind’s essence and being open and relaxed about it. This is the principle of [b:35vwd2hy]looseness[/b:35vwd2hy] and it is the solid basis of mindfulness.

After finding the looseness and relaxation the bright and sharp quality of the senses can be emphasized. When the senses are fully open and simply present, this is the attitude of [b:35vwd2hy]brightness[/b:35vwd2hy]. In a state of relaxed openness with the flow of sensations unblocked, one can arrive at the [b:35vwd2hy]lucid[/b:35vwd2hy] quality of the essential nature itself. In every sensation there is the bright presence at work, which is a quality inherent to the mind.

These foundations of [i:35vwd2hy]looseness, brightness[/i:35vwd2hy] and [i:35vwd2hy]lucidity[/i:35vwd2hy] have been the underlying priciples of my latest off the cushion practice. The original instructions of Trekchod in the root text of Lamrim Yeshe Nyingpo are as follows:

[i:35vwd2hy]”This instant of freshness; unspoiled by thoughts of the three times, You directly see in actuality by letting be in naturalness”[/i:35vwd2hy]

Creating something artificial is always moving away from the natural state. Being motionless is leaving things be as they naturally are with nothing added or removed, wanted or rejected. For that reason this practice can also be called [i:35vwd2hy]the Three Ways of Let Be[/i:35vwd2hy] or [i:35vwd2hy]Training in Threefold Motionlessness.[/i:35vwd2hy]

[b:35vwd2hy]Let the body be
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The first aspect is called [i:35vwd2hy]the unmoving body like a king of mountains[/i:35vwd2hy]. If we are doing formal meditation on the cushion, the body is kept erect and relaxed like mountain. This principle can also be applied to any posture and used in movement as well. If letting go of the deeper bodily tension is mastered through the practice of bodywork, just attending to the body and dropping all fabrication is enough to put the body at ease and to connect to the subtle emotional body and deeper to the emptiness body as well. There can be an initial rush of tingling sensations, the body feels open-ended, floating and vibrating in space and deeply rooted in the earth. There is a complete acceptance of the physical conditions and openness to all experiences of the body whether pleasant or unpleasant.

[b:35vwd2hy]Let the senses be
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The second principle of let be is also called [i:35vwd2hy]unmoving senses like planets and stars reflected in a lake[/i:35vwd2hy]. All the senses are left open and the stream of sensations are let be just as they are: bright, unceasing, unblocked and not manipulated in any way. There is no selecting or blocking of the sense input. The field of sensations, whether sounds, sights or tastes, form together a unified mix of vibrations in space with little contrast between the periphery and the centre [1]. Not even the flow of thoughts are blocked in any way.

No intention to pick up sights and sounds is necessary, the senses are left open and receptive and there is perfect and unhidered flow of sensations. How much effort does it take to see or hear anyway? There is a specific difference between reaching out with the senses and allowing the perceptions to appear.

[b:35vwd2hy]Let the mind be
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The third principle is leaving the mind be as it is, clear and lucid and dropping any trying, comparing, judging, meditating, being or becoming. This is also called the third motionlessness: [i:35vwd2hy]unmoving mind-essence like a cloudless sky[/i:35vwd2hy]. It goes without saying that one can only cut through the mental fabrication all the way to the natural state only if it has been recognized and familiarized before.

I have noticed how even resting in a state of tranquility and nonconception, there is often an underlying idea, a non-conscious attitude that I am meditating. This is an example of a subtle form of fabrication that limits the awareness. The concept of ”I” could be as subtle as clinging to a form of the body in an otherwise open space. This attitude is not a regular thought that can be perceived, but more like an assumption beneath the level of the thinking mind. Even if those ideas have already been let go of, there could be some subconscious checking going on about the extent and quality of the awareness or perhaps comparing it’s quality to some idea of an ideal state.

When all the fabrications and ideas are gone, there is just open vastness of knowing awareness, the union of shamatha and vipashyana that is mind-essence. Drop all techniques.

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[i:35vwd2hy]”If the doors of perception were cleansed every thing would appear to man as it is, Infinite”
- William Blake[/i:35vwd2hy]
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7 years 4 months ago #94110 by Antero
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[b:3udwww9z]Self-cognizance
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This has been my sitting practice lately:

I drop all the attachment to the the body, imaginary borders drawn in space and spacial location and get absorbed into the spaciousness and emptiness of my own body. I have started to call this experience the emptiness-body because of the physical nature of it.

I look at the vastness and emptiness of this bodily experience closely and loose myself in it. The object of investigation is this void of non-attacment that is empty of all inherent properties and at the same time has potential for endless spontanious manifestations.

There is seeing happening, but what exactly is being seen?

There is seeing happening, but what excatly is the one that sees it?

Doing this practice over and over again, coverings have been pulled away piece by piece and I have arrived at a definite conclusion that there is no-thing is that is doing the seeing and no-thing is seen. Whichever way I approach it, this is the undeniable truth of things: At the bottom of the experience the object of seeing is excatly the same that sees it. While they are the same, they cannot be found. This is the concrete phenomenal manifestation of emptiness: there is nothing to be found and somehow this can be known.

After repeatedly investigating this, I have slowly come to the definite conclusion of this nature of self-cognizance of phenomena.
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7 years 4 months ago #94111 by Bill29ish
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Antero: Thank you for positing. Would you say this last post reflects a new insight or a previous insight that has significantly deepened?

Bill
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7 years 4 months ago #94112 by Antero
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&quot;Bill29ish&quot;:95rlgje6 wrote: Antero: Thank you for positing. Would you say this last post reflects a new insight or a previous insight that has significantly deepened?

Bill[/quote:95rlgje6]

It is like first seeing someone in a crowd at a distance and then later meeting face to face with all the time in the world. The latter is so much more detailed way of getting to know someone. Before there were clear experiences of emptiness or awareness, but usually they were recognized separately. Now they are seen to arise at the same time and there is no mistaking that they are dependently originated.

So yes, a previous insight, but significantly deepened as you aptly put it <!-- s:) --><img src="{SMILIES_PATH}/icon_e_smile.gif" alt=":)" title="Smile" /><!-- s:) -->

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7 years 4 months ago #94108 by Bill29ish
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I figured as much. Thank you for clarifying.
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7 years 2 months ago #94109 by Antero
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[b:2ylvgmoe]The Weather System of Unborn Nature
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My daily experience has been saturated with numerous occasions of great clarity and peace. Sometimes the mind has been so motionless that the quality of vastness has been impossible to miss. What a bliss.

On the other hand there have been moments of fiery turbulence and movement as well and this caused me a lot of trouble as I was unable to relate to that turmoil that seemed to cover the precious aspects of tranquility and vastness, making the mind opaque and blurred instead. This contradiction created resistance to all the movement and commotion of the mind and craving for the calmness to return.

The breakthrough did not come all of the sudden, but creeping slowly until at some point the moving mind started to reveal it’s inner essence. On the other side of all that movement has always been the staying aspect of the mind, the calm abiding that promptly and unerringly recognizes all the arising and passing disturbances without wavering. The energetic aspect of the agitation and turmoil of the mind has started to open up and my appreciation for it’s brightness, vibrancy and sparkling energy have been growing lately.

Nowadays I am seeing the mind more like a weather system. The disturbance starts at some tiny corner creating unstable and chaotic system that radiates allover. It has the power and the energy that should not be calmed by force. Experiencing it fully, openly and deeply with the body electrifies the everyday experience, heightens it without creating unwanted side effects of attachment and resistance. When negativity does not get a foothold and solidify, There are just vivid dynamic vibrations and some momentary bright traces withing a huge volume of space. This seems to be the cutting edge of my practice at the moment, coming and going and not yet an ongoing experience.

The quality of my everyday life is very much colored by the type of sitting practices I do, as I am exloring the various qualities of the space of awareness. It might be the aspects of vastness and built-in power or potency of the space extending to all directions coming to the foreground. Sometimes it is the clarity, vividness and impermanence of the arising and passing of random sense perceptions. Last week it was the unborn quality of awareness, the eternal nowness, completely unrelated to the concept of time. Currently my experience is flavoured by a forcefield of an automatic radar that impartially highlights and recognizes whatever there is to experience in this corner of the universe.
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7 years 2 months ago #94107 by Bill29ish
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Interesting. I am in very much the same place and stopped by to update, but i dont know what i would add that would be different. Much of my own process lately has been about seeing the empty, bright nature of the movements that I previously thought of as obstructions of &quot;the awakened state&quot;. I have been seeing that they truly are made of the same stuff, and that only the view, deeply buried though it may be, that these things are obstructions, is what blocks the empty, luminous nature from dominating. My experience has been seeing each of these movements as equally liberated sensations in the body, and through that there is a continual moving closer to what you have called the weather patterns, a real intimacy in which they lose their identity as obstruction, or movement, or other.
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