Nyingje's Practice Notes

Hello everyone!! I have been watching everyone's progress unfold on this website and it has been amazing! I have attended Kenneth's meditation classes at his house a few times and I recently had my first skype session with Kenneth last Sunday (08-08-10). I am not a person who journals so this might take awhile for me to get into a groove in posting my sittings so please bare with me as I fumble a long. Of course any comments, questions, concerns and critiques will be greatly appreciated.

Skype session went like this:
Kenneth explained the following before the meditation:
1. Unconscious incompetance
2. Conscious incompetance
3. Conscious competance
4. Unconscious competance

I noted the following:
body sensations: pressure, itching, tension, pulsing, vibrations, etc.
mental states: distraction, frustration, curious, investigation, etc.
object awareness: rising, falling etc.
feeling tone: pleasant, unpleasant, neutral

Then, I went to the fluttering of my eyes. Left eye was more predominant.
Pulsing with slight pain in third eye.
Pulsing continual.
Strobe light slight at third eye.
When I focused on third eye the left eye had intense fluttering then right eye slight fluttering then both eyes fluttering.

Tingling in all fingers and pulsing in palms of both hands.
Pulsing constant.
Wave like pulsing as in pushing hands apart.
Heat in both hands.
Then, entire body became hot especially up my back and trunk of body.
Head became quiet, calm, peaceful, light, expansive.
I was nervous to open eyes because my face felt distorted as if it was frozen in place.
Then I put it all together with noting everything: unpleasant, unpleasant, irritation, curiosity, distraction, frustration, tension, warmth, coolness, pleasant, unpleasant, tension, tension, warmth, neutral, heat, heat, pulsing, pressure, neutral etc.

08-08-10 Evening Meditation 30mins.
Started with focusing on breath.
Noted tingling in fingers, heat in both palms.
Noted entire body itching and then skin felt dry and raw. As if my skin was it was beginning to fall off?!? Curious.
Itching then became stronger in both hands along with heat and tingling in fingers.
Tingling in fingers and warmth in palms.
Distraction, distraction, frustration, curious, investigation, distraction, frustration, frustration, frustration, irritation, irritation, curiousity, unpleasant, unpleasant, neutral, unpleasant, unpleasant neutral.

08-09-10
Had horrible day. Full of anger and frustration. Noting helped during the day but kept coming back to anger and frustration. Went to park to "clear my head"
Walking Meditation in park 30 mins
Noted: Pressure, heat on feet, tingling in fingers, frustration, unpleasant, unpleasant, neutral, unpleasant, coolness, coolness, pressure, heat, pressure, pressure, coolness, tingling, tingling. Then there was this brief moment which took my breath away. For the "first time" I actually felt the air on my hands as I walked around the park. I will never forget the exact spot and time at the park of that moment. It was really amazing. Then, pressure, warmth, pressure, tingling, tingling, pulsing, heat, pulsing, pressure.

"For the "first time" I actually felt the air on my hands as I walked around the park."-nyingje

Wonderful! Who says waking up is hard to do? Keep doing it, Nyingje. It just keeps getting better. Remember to keep up the noting with gentleness and constancy because the tortoise always wins this race.

Kenneth

Nyingje,

Thinking of you now. Best of luck with your practice and the difficult times you are going through.

One thing you can be sure of, if it is rough now, at some point in the future it will not be. I'm having a bit of a difficult day myself. We are all here for you and routing for you.

mumuwu,

Thanks for the thoughts. I love reading your posts!! I am grateful for your wisdom.

Nyingje