Toward 4th path

Up until recently most or all my sits involved the subtle sensation of pursuit, looking for, expecting, waiting for something to happen. There was the phenomenon of 'looking at'. There was much movement of energy moving around the eyes which I relaxed into. Much energy in the center of the head. After a while a feeling sense of 'I am' emerged where I actually wasn't engaged in looking. This arose out of centering concentration in the heart. From this the sensation of awareness watching awareness arose. After a while, noting that a powerful dark night was in progress I wondered if I could look at the observer, observing. This pushed energy into the back of the head and an altogether deeper feeling of darkness. Then recently powerful energy moved through the center, front, back and crown of the head. Last week I awoke in the night time to a powerful bubbling in the heart. A sudden snap of energy rushed from the base of the spine up through the crown of the head creating kind of 'implosion' sensation as though the energy blast had rebounded back into the brain. This was followed near simultaneously by an energy wave piercing the heart. Since then, there is no movement in the mind at all when sitting...the reflex push of searching, wondering what else there is appears to have abated. This is not the broadening out of the mind of first or second path or the vast spaciousness I have associated with third, I am not looking at anything, this process seems to have abated. This is.... well, it's just empty...
Paul

The other day I felt I had to raise my voice quite harshly to a student who was running amok in the school. I was also assaulted by a student. Two interesting things...after speaking very harshly to the one student, the mind was instantly still the moment after. My emotional state returned to stillness immediately also, however, the physical aftermath of the event remained in the body....presumably from the rush of adrenalin. Also, my colleagues found me unusually calm about the assault. There was the physical sensation of the assault, but the mind and emotions again were still. I also find now it is a lot easier to understand and engage with the emotional needs of my wife....our marriage has been on its knees for the last few months. Things have picked up remarkably....she's is in fact disorientated that I could swing from my position of apparent conflict to one of empathy and reconciliation in a single moment. Life has suddenly become very interesting...
Paul

Sounds cool....aren't you done yet?