Meekan logs

8hrs sitting with some walking and short meditation and one hr lunch thrown in.
Seems like I did the regular in and out of itches, nice expansive feelings. Not any very negative feelinga more than getting my hind part kicked by back pain
For the first 3-4 hrs
Then I spent the latter part being sooooo sleepy but not falking asleep.
Riding away with thoughts and so. Kinda weird that it lasted so long.

Epiphany in last sit:
Sitting bull is just a lot of S.B.
I.e. My mind generated a lot of stupid word games while meditating
(avoidance?

30 min
Felt like deep concentration. Started out in a low mood. Some itching, then expansion.
Focusing lately on opening up even more when investigating feeling.
Perhaps on some level still trying to avoid them through accepting

Wishing all the best for everyone in 2012!

1 hr
In the beginning noting some small bodily sensations. Feeling tone, mostly unpleasant.
Then expansion.
Slowing down? Then larger expansion and light coming in. As per usual. Itching at the same time.
Then quite intense fear. Subsided, some light.
Some general unpleasantness.
Little whirring of sensations in head.
Pretty pleasant towards the end.

Great to see you back! I've wondered how you're doing.

Hi and thanks!
I am a very infrequent visitor here nowadays

Things are just good over here.
How are you doing?

By normal standards, I'm good, but manage to see the glass 1/2 empty most of the time. Haven't been able to discover how to keep up continuity for path with a heavy work schedule (programming). Hanging out here keeps me in touch with that it's possible.

Cool. Sounds like a good idea to stay in touch!

Wish you find a way to reach what you're aiming for, soon!